Bavulum Kalsın Ben Gidiyorum

The song "Bavulum Kalsın Ben Gidiyorum" by İkiye On Kala begins with the singer describing how they have been feeling lately. They admit that today they have been feeling a little lost and vulnerable, and they need to find themselves again. They realize how small they are in the grand scheme of things, and they also feel a bit cold. The singer reflects on how visible their wounds and brokenness have become, but from afar, they appear to be strong.

As the song continues, the singer admits that they have been able to pick themselves up, but just as they think they are making progress, they suffer setbacks. The singer reflects on the need to confront whatever is in their way, even if it means getting hurt. The singer has taken steps to move on from past relationships and events in their lives but is still shocked and disorientated by what has occurred.

The singer then talks about how everything that defines them is left on one street, where all the events of their life have taken place. They mention how talking about the events that have occurred is not funny, and they may not be the most significant fish in the sea, but their experiences and journey have been valid. They again reiterate that it is a deep issue they are dealing with and reflects that they do not need the approval or validation of others to understand how they are feeling.

Bugün biraz yükseldim kendimi bulmak için
Today, I rose a little bit higher in search of finding myself

Ne kadar küçükmüşüm, biraz da üşümüşüm
I realized how small I am, and also how cold

Yaralarım, kırıklarım ne kadar görünür olmuş
My wounds and brokenness have become more visible

Fakat uzaktan bakınca güçlüymüşüm
But from afar, I appear strong

İyi kötü toparladım derken, kahretsin
Just when I thought I had it all together, damn it

Çarpmam gereken her neyse isabetle
Whatever I needed to hit, I hit it with precision

Birer birer ayrılıp dağıldım
I separated and dispersed one by one

Daha yeni küfür yemiş bir surat kadar şaşkınım
I'm as shocked as a face that just received a curse word

Dur bu derin bi mevzudur
Hold on, this is a deep issue

İşte bu yüzden kafama ihtiyacım yoktur
That's why I don't need my head

Ne halim varsa kaldı hepsi o sokakta
All that's left of me is in that street

Anlatınca komik olmayan olaylarda
In events that aren't funny when you explain them

Ortalama bi balıktım ama unutmadım
I was an average fish, but I haven't forgotten

Tüm işe yaramayan konularda ben haklıydım
I was right about all of the useless topics

Bugün yeni bi şey deniyorum
Today, I'm trying something new

Bavulum kalsın, ben gidiyorum
My suitcase can stay, I'm leaving